When I taught arts programs for at-risk teens, I’d have them start our 10-week course by writing what they wanted from life. When language was difficult for them, I’d have them collage or paint it. Later they would visualize then write about their lives in ten years. Where would they be living? Who would they share their lives with? What kind of work would they be doing? Then the specifics – describe the favorite room in their future home, the people who surround them, how it felt to do the work they did. For some of them this exercise was near impossible. Some of them simply said, “I hope to be alive”. Some said they hoped to be off probation. Some said maybe they could imagine working at a store. And my question always was – How can you expect anything of life if you don’t know what it is you want? You’ve got to search your heart for your deepest true desires, and then don’t be afraid to ask for it. Otherwise you are just drifting through life, going wherever the wind blows you.
Hello self. Are you listening?
Obviously I often forget to do this. Here I am in this awful year, financially and emotionally stretched to the limit and all I’m doing is dog-paddling to keep my head above water….just going wherever the current takes me. I can’t imagine my future. All I know is that I want to be out of this stress. That’s not much of a dream.
So this week is all about reclaiming my stake in life. I’m excavating the treasures of my heart, sweeping the cobwebs out of the corners, dusting off my ambitions and starting again.
Amy Ferris and I had a long talk about it, and decided this is our power week. She’ll be blogging about it as well. We’re going to do an experiment- First we get clear on what it is we really want. Self doubt, fear, shame will be swept away with the broom of truth. Then, every day this week, we will claim our heart’s desires with pure, clear intent. And watch what happens…
Yesterday was day one. I stated that I was manifesting money and miracles. I received a check in the mail for $166 dollars. Well, it’s a start, but perhaps I need to be a bit more specific.
So this week I’ll be asking myself these questions:
What does my heart want?
Where do I want to be in ten years?
What does it look like, feel like, taste like, sound like?
What (in me) is stopping me from claiming my stake in life?
We are all here for a reason. Every one of us has a purpose. Are we living our purpose, or just surviving? Will you join Amy and I for a week of miracles? We’ll start with a week, then who knows? Maybe we’ll stretch it out to a year, or maybe a lifetime? But for today…baby steps.
What does your heart yearn for?
( * Follow Amy’s journey: http://marryinggeorgeclooney.com/blog/)
Love you and your blog. You manifest wonderful thoughts and they will come to you.
love you too Madge. You coming on the journey with us this week?
Although I suspect you are already very clear with your journey.
I'm right there with you!
So many times what you say could be exactly what I'm thinking (although you are much more eloquent than what is swirling around in my brain). Dog paddling has been the norm for me for about 3 years now. Thinking about what I want in 10 years seems almost impossible. I'll keep reading though, and perhaps I can begin to take full strokes instead of the little doggie strokes I've been using.